For anyone who has been in my situation, of joblessness knows the hardship of looking for work and the ups and downs that can bring. Through it all I have generally remained hopeful, apart from my odd sleepless night and down day. This period has been very tough on all of us, I think (and hope) we have managed to shield our children fairly well and they have been less affected but they still have been living with less than most of the friends. But of course, there are others worse off than us. We have been lucky to have some important support from a couple of people.
But the thing that was the hardest for me was the let downs, which every time got worse. The job interviews or contacts who gave a positive response of possible job confirmation or offers to then just vanish as if into thin air. The getting your hopes up, allowing yourself to dream of a turn around in life, a new start, an improvement and more options, less stress, more happiness - only for that to be taken away.
Im not talking about a general job interview and you getting your hopes up but something which appeared more substantial. Its the worst feeling for me, but when you have someone giving you the impression or idea that they are really going to follow up, giving you the possibility of a big positive change in your life, only for that not to proceed is such a let down and something I had not experienced until this period in my life. Of course, things have not turned my way at times but when in this situation, where someone gives you a 'light', a chance to get back on your feet and you believe them , only to be let down, worse each time.
I thought all this was behind me and positive changes ahead (which they are) but recently my husband was approached by someone he knew with an offer that could change our life for the foreseeable future, something of our dreams. We knew it was probably too good to be true but you let yourself believe and dream, not seeing why or what benefit is to that person to fool you or lead you along. But again, we were disappointed and let down, it made us take our eye off the path and look another way, build our hopes up and dream of a better way. And that hurts.